CRYING WITHOUT TEARS

Every time I wake up, it sems like a lovely, striking, fresh day for me. I feel every smiles surround me. Every air embraces me. I always see my friends which gives me unmarked greetings. I’m with my new school now, with new friends and new experiences. I’m also with my former classmates in elementary who can catch me whenever I fall from my failures and I always expect them the encouragements that they will give me.

           One day, my friend called my phone and brought me news. It was a dark night that she whispered: It’s (friendship) over, and I don’t want you to be friend anymore somewhat I do not know. I choked and am unspoken. My atmosphere turned into black and the droplets of the ogle fell into the ground. I love my friends and they are important to me even some people might say. At that moment, I asked myself “why people need to say goodbye once they cannot hold on to something until the end”. That is not the only problem that I had. Then the rest became quiet and hushed. Then in a flash, I thought of my other best friend.

                                                                                                                                                           

The next morning when I woke up, it was not the usual morning that I began. The deep carriage full loads continually stuck to my head. I only knew one person who can help me feel better, comfort me for a unique mode, my best friend – Sky. I so called her Sky because of something that is different in my feelings. She is an energetic, cheerful one and always in high spirits. I came to their house one heartrending morning with my scowl face. I saw her. I began to talk to her with my normal voice that she cannot guess that I am in nuisance but she treated me in an unusual way that I was not able to understand why and left her all by myself. Until I reached our school room, I became silent at all that would give me a peace of mind. I don’t have yet close friends in my new school that can talk with. I was trying to talk to her but she didn’t give me any reply. “Why is this so?” I asked myself, “my special friend left me without any suitable reason and then here it comes again with my best friend”. I want to be rebelled with her but I still hold on to our long childhood friendship which I thought it was inseparable. I sensed she quitted from being my best friend because it was so easy for her to have modern friends than the older one and left me without any words to say. I always asked “why?” I’m doing everything just to get it back until my heart and mind became weary and my butt was whole time parked waiting for the respond.

                                                                                                                                                               

          Every night, I weep inaudibly, without any knowledge of people that I do that – especially her. But, were the tears worthy for? I always say sorry for her and sorry for myself but what was that sorry for? I can not simply imagine the mistake happened expect one. That is, I let this incident change me.

I try to find a new long lasting friendship but until now I can’t.  It is because I treasured it so much that no one can get and imitate. Expected or unexpected situation for both of us, still, it is an experience that would never be lost.

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.. i wrote this in time when our english teacher allow us to wrote our 2nd formal theme:
AIM: To be able to write an experience from life that shows how and why it affects one.